BOO!

Shadows of a thousand years rise again unseen,
Voices whisper in the trees, "Tonight is Halloween!"
- Dexter Kozen

And today's also my blog's 4th birthday. :)

Sorry for the lack of decent updates. There are just so many many things happening in my life all in one go, and I didn't even have the time to stop and breathe. Never mind what, because actually.. the stuff didn't really concern me, but YT, being such a good friend..


Okay, I should stop digressing and share some happy moments with you guys! :D




Friday is like, the offical Papers day right? And lucky me got to meet up with all the girls! Although at different times and places, it's just get catching up with my favourite girlies.


Didn't managed to take a photo with Amelia though. Damn. :(

Stefanie and I went to look and play with Halloween costumes at Toys'r'Us..


Pardon all the blurry shots, my friend can't take good photographs. :D

Wear Acuvue contact lenses, THEY REALLY WORK IN MAKING EYES BIG!!!1

Stef-lan the warrior

That red thing is a poisoned apple. It really is.

One of my better days..


And I met Sebas for supper at Geylang after that!





MOS for Halloween + Edwin's birthday party on Saturday!!


I'm a witch! :)

Well, not your old school typical kind of witch yo.



Calvin's a burglar! Or robber!

Well.. either way, it's a good costume. Ha.

Your friend.

Edwin, whose birthday lies on the 24th of October. Someone's 20! :D

Jie, Calvin and QingHao, playing with hand guns.

Your friend says hi.

SAVE MEEEEEEE~!!!!!



Javier in pink.

Sebas, acting cute with my hat, which is always getting in the way, dropping and super irritating. I left it at the baggage counter because it's so troublesome and got me pissed off.

And you do not want to witness the sight of a pissed off witch.


Boonsiang was there too, slightly wasted and all alone smoking near the valets. Ha.



And by the end of the night..


My stockings looked like that. :S

Sia la, looked so abused.




School today...


And town with Stefanie after that. :)

We caught The Seeker, which is a rather stupid show and the story is predictable.. So yeah.


I'm really tired. I'll blog again soon, darlings.

I'm so scared now. I really don't know what to do and I hope I did the right thing. You really matters helluva lot to me and I can't afford to lose you. I really can't.

Don't ever do anything like that again.

I love you.

Lazing on the couches with laptops on our laps and a bag of chips circulating about my favourite girls on a mundane Wednesday night.


What more can I ask for?

School?

Jupiter Cafe ain't open for business..

No roasted chicken salad or chicken leg pasta.

:(

My beautiful COACHie-woochie baby..

A quickie..

Do listen to this song! If you wanna listen to Chivas only, forward to like, 5.20

The maid went on an approximately 6 days holiday with the boyfriend.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.



And school begins tomorrow. Roasted chicken salad, here I come!

Speaking of school, did I mention I've got off day on Thursdays? If you all wanna club on Wednesday, tell me hor. :)))

The last weekend before the next semester

Amelia, Huixian and I hanged out yesterday, after work in town.


Wah, so serious.


MWAHS!




Mos after that:

I am your very cute friend. ^^


We were camwhoring and chilling in the toilet for so long, we made new friends, whom one of them thought her phone was missing and another one is from TP. Ha. Damn nice, although I forgot their names already. Ah, my bad.

The thing about knowing people in clubs is that, I can never remember their names until they add me on friendster or if they're super cute.


The guys from infocomm and friends were there too, celebrating Ernest's 18th birthday, like finally.

Terrance..


... and a guy whom I don't know and is making funny faces to the camera.


Okay, ciao. And I'm crazy over Kelly Clarkson's Chivas. Ha.

Nothing last forever

Today, I looked around me; the surroundings, the people I hang out with, and it suddenly just dawned onto me.




Everyone around me has really matured a lot.

A lot.

It seemed like just a few years back when the guy will set the mIRC channel topic like, "[=]-<3 xXx, wiill eUz bee mOi sTeadz ? ii relii lubs eUz 1314 !!! <3-[=]" and the girl will accept and they'd start counting the hours, the days they've been together and they'd go school together, and the guys will send the girls home and like, 1 month into the relationship, they finally done some physical contact like, kissing, and then suddenly, some shit happens and they breaks up.

End of story? Of course not! Break-ups are nothing. Some 2 weeks later, they'd patch up and then 1 month later, they'd break up and then.. well, I guess you get the drift. And I'm not quite done yet! Like, perhaps 2 days after their final break up, someone moves along and gets involved in yet another relationship, which is somewhat similar.




But gone are those days.

Like I was saying, I looked around and I see all my friends, happily attached with someone they truly love and care.

They are willing to sacrifice stuff and time for the partner, willing to scrimp and save to buy an expensive birthday present for the partner because they want the partner to own it, willing to do whatever if it'd put the smile on the partner's face, et cetera et cetera.. the list just goes on.

It just makes me happy seeing how much the people around me has matured, you know? Okay, so it's not like as if I've been through so much that someone made me the guru or whatsoever, because the actual fact is that, I've been through nuts!

My relationships had like, the shelf lives of dairy products and to be honest, my longest relationship was a say, six pathetic months. Hahaha. Laugh la laugh la, I'd laugh along with you.

It's some kind of self-realization that hit me like, maybe I'm the kind of person you'd find for lust.



So maybe I'm just friggin' 18, I know fairly well that there's still so so so much more, waiting for me to experience and to be really honest and blunt, relationships at my age.. just don't really last long, do they? Ultimately, they'd come to a halt and the victim in that relationship would prolly feel 295725 times more pain than I've ever felt.


But it's just so tiring, and not to forget, painful, to go through the whole routine so frequently, you know?




And so the whole point of my post is that:

Nobody loves YT.

Hmmm, I wonder if you managed to figure that out before I mentioned it.

OUT!

Random Thoughts #17

Monday

• No sales for the whole shift
• Stefanie for shopping
• Sebas for company after that, along with Andrew and Daphne too
• Went to Sweeyim's counter and let her play makeup with my face
• Chomp chomp for dinner (I finally went there)
  
• Ice3 for dessert

And I finally met Amelia today and spent some quality good time with my dear girl. Chilled at her place, Huixian came over and we dyed our hairs.

I really love my girls.




I just gave some really lame excuse to not work for the rest of the week and it worked. Wow. It's time to sit back, chill, do school clothes shopping and enjoy whatever's left of my holidays.




I was sitting at the T2's depature hall's smoking room, during my break, staring at planes, killing my lungs softly, and this local guy came up to me and we chatted. And he gave me this pack of duty-free cigarettes (for kukus (like me, who hadn't been travelling): duty-free Marlboro is going for $24 at 200sticks). Haa. Not that I like smoking it, but it's freeeeee. And the box is cuteeeeeee. And that guy was very niceeeeee.

Speaking of guys at the departure hall, I gave my number to this other guy, in exchange for a sale of my fragrance.

My number is only worth SGD$87.





But it was a fake one. LALALA.

In the wink of the eye..

Yet another weekend came and went! It's depressing to know that I have just one more weekend to go before I head back to school, books and horrible, cramped bus rides in the morning.

My past weekdays had been nothing but miserable and horrible. I don't even wanna go into it, cause it's so boring; which anyway is the primary reason for the lack of updates.

I waited for bus 24 at the airport for an hour on Friday and I went home feeling worse, because the bus ride definitely wasn't comfortable. It was almost as if I was at Phuture, except for the fact that I was the only one who could hear the loud music, nobody was moving to the beats and there were really old people.

Well.. But at least I managed to get the real deal with Andrew, James and Sebas later on.


Andrew, James and Sebas


Took a rain check off work then because.. I can't find a reason, but I just didn't felt like working. Shopped with Stefanie in town and I went MOS with Edwin, Javier and Wenxuan to join the rest.

Wenxian, Jie, Javier and Edwin

I had really horrible fringe for most of the photos, sigh. It's time for a haircut.

I don't think you'd have noticed but I was wearing a bikini. Er, isn't MOS something like Cafe Del Mar?

AMELIA, OH MY BELOVED AMELIA. It truly felt like ages since I had any decent talk with her. :( With all the work and her guy, we don't meet 7 days a week anymore.

Just so upsetting. And did I mention she's heading Sentosa for school once the new semester starts? Just the thought of it is enough to make me feel worse.

Sigh.



My life is really going downhill.

And ok, something random to share: A couple of weeks ago, I saw this (really cute) guy outside MOS and after that fated night, I dreamed of him! I don't know about you, but I'm definitely not the kind of person who remembers my dreams and so yah, as I was saying.. I hadn't seen him since then, but his friends, yes. Just not him.

Drats.

Random Thoughts #16

I had a quick lunch of microwaved spaghetti with dear Stefanie on the steps at the train station before I rushed for work, catching up with stuff. It's just so nice to do something like that once in a while.




I said something on MSN just now and I really like it:

YINGTING says (12:34 AM):
no
fuck
we cant be close because of MEN

YINGTING says (12:34 AM):
we're supposed to be close DESPITE MEN

*puts on big celebrity shades and waves nonchalantly to everyone*




And seriously? I really have no life. I've been to nowhere but the airport and home (and my room, my toilet and the kitchen; but it doesn't make me any less pathetic) for the past four days.

Did I mention today's a WEDNESDAY?

Just. Kill. Me.

I'm just a sheer waste of oxygen, space, food and electricity.




And call me pimply. I'm having a major breakout and it's not funny where they decided to implant their seeds (think mouth).




Life never fails to remind me that things are ever-changing.

As time goes by, the people around you just don't always stay the same. I uses an organizer and when I flip back to the past months, it's bizarre how the whole month can be filled with Tom's names and then the previous month will be Harry and perhaps the featured person for the month of October will be Dick.

Shit happens, things changed.

Nobody cares whether you like it or not, you just have to accept the fact that things had changed and you can't do a fucking thing to reverse the effect, to your benefit that is, because this is reality.




I went on Dictionary.com and typed just and this is what I get:

just1 /dʒʌst/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[juhst] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –adjective

1.	guided by truth, reason, justice, and fairness: We hope to be just in our understanding of such difficult situations.

2.	done or made according to principle; equitable; proper: a just reply.

3.	based on right; rightful; lawful: a just claim.

4.	in keeping with truth or fact; true; correct: a just analysis.

5.	given or awarded rightly; deserved, as a sentence, punishment, or reward: a just penalty.

6.	in accordance with standards or requirements; proper or right: just proportions.

7.	(esp. in Biblical use) righteous.

8.	actual, real, or genuine.

–adverb

9.	within a brief preceding time; but a moment before: The sun just came out.

10.	exactly or precisely: This is just what I mean.

11.	by a narrow margin; barely: The arrow just missed the mark.

12.	only or merely: He was just a clerk until he became ambitious.

13.	actually; really; positively: The weather is just glorious.

Okay... I raised my eyebrow whilst scanning the list of explanations but the explanation I was looking for wasn't there and maybe I'm just not meant to find that out.

But anyways, inserting a just into a sentence can really morph the whole emotion of the sentence to the highest and most exasperating stage and.. well, ah fuck it.




Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again




And I was getting worried you guys may forget how I look like:


So there you have it, a photo of moi! :D

And I am not taking enough narcissistic photos because that is the most recently and decent (= smiling and not looking very retarded) photo of myself I can dig out, and that have been long.




Did I mention I'm not having such a great time at work?

And I'm hitting the sack. Goodbye.




[UPDATE]
I lifted this off here:

Two people met, and fell in love. But to test fate, they decided to go on their separate ways and if they were truly meant to be, they will fall in love again.

So they walked away, from each other.

What they didn't know was - they have had met before. And that was exactly what they had decided to do - to challenge destiny. They had walked away before and now they have met again.

They didn't know.

So they walked away.

Once again.

And now, they will never meet.

Ever.

Love.. is all about timing, isn't it?

It's always the right person, wrong time. [/UPDATE]