Huh.

Time : 11.18

There's something freaking wrong with my bloody Blogger. And I HAVE to use Blogger to blog, since I have quite a number of photos to post up. I can't even use the normal "Compose mode", since it interuptes the limited space I have for blogging. Now I am using the HTML version. Wonderful!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STEFANIE!

Stefanie: Happy birthday, kido! :) You're finally offically 16! Yeah! Thanks for bringing so much joy into my life. Don't know just how much duller my life would had been, if not because of all the colours you brighten up my life with. Now that you're 16, you can have sex without your sex partner being punished! Double YEAH! Alright, just kidding. By the way, I am really NOT angry just now. >.<

I am super tired today. Missed my favourite show today because my maid failed to call me up. I know it's tough! But if you try a littler bit harder, I am sure I would have woke up! ARGH! Now I miss 1 episode of it! (Fa Yi X Dan An)

More bloggin tomorrow. I need to sleep. Hopefully my Blogger would had felt better.



I caught Corpse Bride already! :)

Overall, it's a nice show. Their animation sucks though. Everyone looked so ugly and outta-shape! Some are too thin, too fat, weird hairstyle, weird mouth, weird chicken-like throat-hanging thing. And everyone walks like their feet are tied together. They even provide the shuffling of feet sound effects. -.-

Worth watching though. Go catch it yourself. :)

CLEO shopping tomorrow! WHEE!

Nightmare

Time : 11.28 pm

"I am terribly sorry. That's the only solution left or else we would lose her."

That was the mumbles I heard as I began to arouse.

As if in a distance, a woman, who I believed is my mother, began to sob.

I was in a daze.

What is happening?

My vision became sharper and clearer and I was myself lying on the hospital bed.

In a corner, my parents were curdling together. My mother was sobbing miserably with my daddy's arm around her shoulder.

Suddenly, I had the flashbacks of what that caused my entrance to the hospital.

I was ill.

Terribly ill.

I wasn't sure of the medical term of my illness, but I was sure that it was due to the massive bruises and sores that caused my red blood cells to clot up, prevent regular blood respiration. (Ha. I made that up. I don't even know what the hell red blood cells are for. I only know they exist in our body. Actually, my dream was very vague and I had to add MANY things myself.)

My parents were told by the doctor that I might not live for long..

They didn't know that I was aware of my condition of course; I was eavesdropping all the way.

How could I be oblivious of MY OWN CONDITION?!

I took a peep towards them, and saw plentiful bouquets of beautiful sunflowers and daises, along with a mountain of fruit baskets.

"People actually cared about me." I smiled.

I received many visitors. All of my friends (I shall not name who!) came to visit me. Although they tried to be as normal as possible, there was still a presence of.. Secretion. Once in a while, I saw members of the Papers trying to hold back their tears while joking around with me.

Will I die very soon?

Random thoughts shivered through my mind every now and then. Just how long do I have left, I always question myself.

After quite some time, my parents decided to tell me the truth. Just what I was supposed to be operated upon.

"Darling, the doctor will be amputating your feet away. *my mother sobs* Without doing so, the bad cells would had pervaded throughout your body, causing a larger deteriation of your health and you might just leave.."

My father broke down without finishing his sentence, but I knew exactly what he meant to say.

It took me a few minutes, which felt like years, for me to digest the painful truth.

My heart gave a large skip.

Me? No more feet?

How in the world can I shop again!

I really did not know what to respond. The feet I had walked on for 16 years and 6 months are going to be chopped off, literally, from me. I wouldn't be able to walk, jump, run, swim, kick like a normal being anymore.

People would pity me. People would look down on me.

I was so pessimistic that I threw my blanket over my head and pretend to be asleep.

Tears trickled down my cheeks. All I really need at that time was an embrace from the one I love the most.

I wasn’t sure of just how long I hugged myself and cried my heart out, but one thing for sure, my heart broke.

[We are interrupted here because I woke up. Come on! It’s just a nap. I shall continue my story with my own inspiration.]

Reluctantly, I agreed to the operation after a few days of consideration.

My friends insisted that they would love me just like the usual 2-legged me.

I could get artificial feet and continue with my life.

There was definitely still tons of stuff for me to do even though I would be physically disabled!

I had no other choice, do I?

The operation came and went.

As I awoke from my coma, I looked down to my legs and I was awed.

No words could actually explain how I felt.

First came pain, and then heartache.

Miserable thoughts returned to my mind.

People will think that I am a weirdo..

I just want to escape from the cruel reality that I would be a cripple.

Can you imagine the pain?

I went thought therapy and I depended on crutches to move about. Sometimes, I would just wake up with the heart to shop at all the malls down town with my girls.

But then reality would hit me.

You can hardly walk properly to the toilet alone, Yingting.

For years.. It took me years to adapt to my new life. My life with crutches.

It was a painful journey of course, but I learnt a lot.

Just how to cherish what I had in my hands, and the people around me.

I could still shop, definitely! Along with the aid of my friends and the trusty crutches, I bought pretty clothes from all the boutiques I loved.

I still led a normal life. (

Really.

THE END!

Haha. I just returned home and I fell asleep! This is a nightmare, seriously. Imagining just having my feet amputated. Well, I do not think I narrated my story well, but heck! I enjoyed writing it. :D

I hate the girls for finishing my gan liang (rations) in 3 days. ARGH! I am banning you guys from coming to my house until I restock! You big fat pigs!!

Blogger was down, and I am really starting to enjoy blogging using Microsoft Word! The downloading was really fast and it’s super user-friendly. Plus! Words will correct all my spelling and grammatical errors! Double YEAH!

amelia~

I think Amelia is very pretty today.
You all think so too right?
:D

Testing 123

I am trying out Blogging for Words now.

TESTEST.

Woah.

Time : 10.49 pm

It's actually illegal to diss your school faculty members in your blog!

So much for freedom of speech ya.

I am rather awed and speechless about this ridiculous news.

Cheechai: Careful ah! Later Ms Tan Ai Hua go and report you how. Suspension leh.

*scrutinize my readers*

Num's the word!

[post deleted due to sensitivity]

Misunderstood.

Time : 9.13 pm

There are 3 kinds of ways people talk about gossips, rumors and secrets.

A majority of people tend to keep everything to themselves. Everything includes their love interests, financial problems, friendship problems or just anything in a nutshell that comprises just how long they hadn't shitted. This kind of introverts tends to have more white hair than normal people, because they are too cropped up with their own mixed thoughts, with no one to share with! Alright, that was my own thesis, but it kinda make some sense. :D

Not only that, no one seem to understand them! They can be sooo secretive that no one actually know what are their views about something. Mysterious, but cool to be with; since you won't be able to get hold of their scandalous secrets from an "unknown" source, that it'd hit you badly.

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Another kind of people use the 50:50 method. Well, for example; they only tell people what they think is necessary for them to know, and what people prefer to hear. They approach people with the safe and secure method, such that normal friends cannot really see through them, thinking that," Ooh! I know so much about so-and-so." But actually, that friend barely skimmed through their surfaces.

I think that these people are hypocrites. I mean, they can go to a friend, A and gossip all about B, saying stuff like,"B is so ugly, B cannot sing, B is a bitch, B thinks she's very pretty but the fact is not." But yet, they can still go to B and say stuff like,"I like you're really pretty. Who says you can't sing?! No lah. I think A bitchier than you lor."

Seriously, they. are. so. fake! Really, sometimes I just wanna remove their masks.

To go further into them, they are kinda two-headed too. Their statement can change from day to night at the wink of the night! They can tell you 1,2,3 about some issue, and tell another friend in A,B, C about the identical issue.

Well, simply said, they are just.. not what you think they are, perhaps?

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Last but not least! People who just speak their minds out. They are not afraid of letting people feel their true and honest opinion about something, and take listless effort to keep it low-profile if they do not think it's necessary. I believe they are the most hated of the 3 types, since they voiced their opinions, good or bad, out loud and clear.

Maybe it's attitude, or just that they couldn't care less, they show everything; rather transparent, I'd say. "I don't like A.", they would say. And hence, make it very obvious to A and people around them. They will not put on a mask and use a goody-two-shoes personality to treat A and make A thinks," There is absolutely NO way she wouldn't like me!"

They talk bad about people, without fearing the karma or retribution they'd get. They taunt at people, without putting their own feet into the poor things' shoes. They do not hestitate to speak ill of something, hence offending more people than they realise. By then, it'd be too late since the offended people would have set their minds, chop a label on them that reads,"BAD AND MEAN PEOPLE!"

Oh yes, they are usually very smart and pretty/handsome too.

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After speaking so much, I guess it takes more than just a dork to realise which catetorgy I fall in ya.

Speaking of dorks, Olinda in Shooting Stars was so cute with her "boyfriend"! I kept grinning when I watched the episode today.

My heart is very pain due to the dramatic drop of marks I got after the callibration or whatever shit! :( The English department actually took out 5 whole marks from my compo! Argh. Nonetheless, I LOVE MY FIRST MARKER A LOT!

(T.T) I never get such high marks like, 24/30 for my composition before. I am so touched. Someone likes my writing (or rather blogging. =x)! *continues sobbing away*
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I was crapping this shit in a glaze, so please pardon all my grammatical and vocabulary errors. *bows*

By the way, which border do you think is nicer? As in the one that divides my post into parts!

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Which which which? Please tell me your preference! :D

Eeek!

Time : 10.52 pm

This seemed like the second time I am blogging at this time, I don't know why, but it's so vaguely familiar.

Today is a double blow for me. (AikChun: PLEASE do not think dirty.) I guess my results just hit me pretty badly. I was totally stunned by my atrocious flak.

Whatever. No point crying over spilt milk now, ya.

I guess these just brought me back to reality. I really need to drill and study really really hard. Let me put more accent on my hard.

ATTA WAY, GIRL!

Amelia came over and we took some disgusting photos.

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... which! I will upload tomorrow because I am a lazy, tired, sleepy and slacky pig. *ultimate grin* Gimme time, dearies. I am sure they are entertaining enough for the wait, especially for the sick and perverts!

Well.. till next time!

Ouch!

Time : 10.42 pm

N.B: I just read Amelia's blog, and I crumpled up in guilt. Maybe I am being too mean, so I decided to do over all my wrong-doings. I am sooo sorry to anyone who is unhappy!

I just went out with my Mummy and I got scalded! Ouch. Super pain can! I think I am really strong to not cry. Haha. Giving this situation to some other girl, I bet she'd cry and whine all about it. There! I AM strong!

SCALDS are caused by contact with boiling fluids or steam, the results of either
injury are disfigurement, scarring and severe pain.

:( Disfigurement.. I scalded my tummy area, so my tummy will not be nice already.. *sobs*

I went grocery shopping! YEAH! You will not hear me fussing about having no food.. for the time being!

I. Am. So. Bored.

School tomorrow. Time flies when you're enjoying. *sulks*

WOAH.

Time : 12.31 am

Look at this!



It is a bad omen to see your iTunes go like that.

YEAH!

Time : 10.52 pm

Hello people! I am sooory sorry for the short hiatus, because my strong Mummy had carried the heavy CPU to the computer shop for a repair! I was in despair, I tell you. Despite my complaints, I still love my computer and the stuff inside, of course.

I had lived my past 2 days in darkness, despair, boredness and I almost commited suicide. Haha! Just kidding.

On a brighter note, nothing was uninstalled in my computer! YEAH! How cool is this?! I just had tons of anti-virus programmes, firewalls all installed in my dearie. :) No more hanging, no more irritating pop-ups!

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My life hadn't been good. I failed my Maths Paper 1.

Not to put those people who never passed Maths Paper 1 before, but.. It is WRONG to fail Maths Paper 1. I almost broke down can! With all the taunting from my "nice" classmates, I felt even worse. Nonetheless, I cleared Chemistry (A super disappointing C5. :( ) and History.

Oh yes! English was sucha letdown.

[Post section deleted in consideration of people's sensitivity. I am SORRY if I offended you. I'm still a rebellious kid at heart, alright. I beg for your kind-heartedness forgiveness!]

But then again, it's over! :)



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Amelia, Huixian and I went K Box on Wednesday!

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And the 5 of us went out today!



It's almost like a routine to take a shot at Eunos MRT Station, while waiting for the train.

All of us have silver necklace!



And again, at Heeren's toilet!

We went to Topshop.. and!

We tried the nice polo tees.


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and..


and..


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:D

We had dinner at Mache!

One of my favourite place for fine dining. Sometimes, I realised when someone's looking for a fine dining place, they ask me for help. WHAT?! I know a lot meh.


YUM!


My plate of Ham and Cheese Crepe. :) It's good!


My horny bitch Joyce.


The 5 of us! :)

On our way home, we witnessed a couple making out on the train. I had no objection about public display of affection, but.. they are outgragous! I mean, the whole lot of us were staring at them and I strongly believe that many other passengers were doing the same too. But they shamelessly boldly continued with what they are doing, as if they're in some motel or something.
Sheesh. Youngster, nowadays!

The worse still, I saw a couple of girls making out, TOO!

I still have the proof/evidence:

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Now, really..

Escapade!

Time : 10.17 pm

No more exams prelims! No more mugging at night! No more painstaking memorising! No more eyes twitching due to lack of sleep! No more studying (for a week.. :( )! No more Daddy's ugly face!

3 cheers for the departure of Prelims!

HIP HIP!
HURRAY!
HIP HIP!
HURRAY!
HIP HIP!
HURRAY!

*ahem* Let me compose back to my normal self.

Last paper already. I have the faintest idea just how well I'd fare, but still.. it's still so comforting to know that I had left my Prelims far behind me!

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There's just so many stuff I wanna do. In fact, there are so many plans and schedule for us girls right after the O levels finished. But seriously, just how many will go in vain? I can't tell you the exact number, but I know for sure, only a few will be accomplished and fulfilled.

We are always full of words, but it never seemed to come alive most of the time. For instance, we said to go blah blah blah, but yet, after so long; we still hadn't step into that place. We sounded so determined at times to get this particular something from the malls, but it took ALOT of determination to get it. For the most of the times, we'd just stare longingly at that something, hoping that someone nice up there would give it to us with sympathy.

That's just us, human beings right?

All talk but no actions.

I'm just all crap but no sense.

Argh! I can't think straight.

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I am too lazy to upload the photos I took today; and to go into what we did today. Someone spak me, please. This is going nowhere!

I think I am coming down with something. Sick sick sick.

I need chocolate.

Argh.

Time : 10.00 pm

I am sooo irritated by my computer! It is strictly NO Creative products! It was so anti-Creative, that it kept hanging NON-STOP after I upload songs into Lecia' Creative mp3. Thanks alot, Mr Sim.

I need to reformat very badly. :( No time to back up my files before it hangs. My pictures, my songs! Make me happy and get me an iBook, will you? *sweet smile*

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School had been a hazzard for me today! I can't believe I am going through all these. Argh! Whatever you guys wanna assume, it's NEGATIVE alright? Trust me! I swear!

I love CLEO! Everyone ought to get their own copy of CLEO October issue! Stuffs are going out at $11 at FleshImp, Fox, Fond Hugs, The Body Shop, Fave Nails, OZOC and more! Total WOAH-ness!

Fuck. I hate my maid. Asshole.

Never mind that now. I got interupted in my blogging by her just now. *spits bitterly on the floor* I am so flabbergasted by this maid.

Tomorrow.. we will overcome our very last barrier for Prelims exams. And we'd be free for at least a few days! *awed*

I can hardly wait!

We are going back to classrooms soon. I already forget the kind of atmosphere I used to enjoy back at Level3. It'd be much nicer though. With Cheechai and friends to keep me company! That's something nice to think about!

Some of my friends had decided not to attend school after collecting all the results for the Prelims. :( Don't make this decision! I'd get to see a lot less of you then! After O levels, we'd be too busy with our own lives, that we might not be able to meet up! We ought to cherish the very last few weeks we have in school right? In the coming months, even if you want to attend lessons, no one will cater to you.. right?

Time : 10.29 pm

Totally pissed off. I need food!

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Venegance is sweet.

*sinister smile*

An eye for an eye.

An eye for a limb this time.

I don't care what my friends may think for what I am trying to do now.

What comes around, goes around, I heard.

It was fate that gave me the idea, the plot!

Fate brought me closer to someone who (opps!) is someone fairly important to you at the moment.

God wants you to pay back. :)

Never offend a women, they say. How true, isn't it?

Bwahaha!

Now now, don't back out! I hadn't had my fill of fun.. yet.

Zzzz..

Time : 2.29 am

Really. I shouldn't be online, or even awake at this time, even the fact that I have schooling tomorrow while the D&T guys (girls) get to sleep at home and shake legs.

Oh no! I am not awed by that fact!

It's their lose to not enjoy the morning breeze and see happy faces in school.

It's their utter mistake to sleep unlike the sun shine at the butt, because that only proclaim themselves PIG(s).

I am not envious of them!!

They need to attend 2hours more of school on Tuesday! While we (F&N students get to go home earlier! YEAH!

I am not jealous that I will only get around 5 hours of sleep-- today!

I do not have a jealous bone!

THE HECK I DON'T!

*smash mirror with a baseball bat*

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I was just reading some archives of some blog and I got so upset. Not because of how it had put me down so badly that I had degrade to be of the same level as Ru Hua, but because of the mere comments I made, that had made someone so angry, but yet I remained helpless for what insults hurled at me.

Thinking back, I still think that it's plain childish and senseless for us to argue over that. But if you're in my shoes now, how'd you feel? My friends got hurled by you, people who supported me got labelled as "losers" or "backstabbers" of yours. My friends were claimed by you that they are not my true friends! They are just suckers right?

Ouch. Stop it with those personal attacks. If this isn't my most important time of my life, I'd have got my "gang" down to settle with you. But I can't. No way am I going to let my parents down just because of you.

I just shiver when I think back again. Some people disagreed with how I settled it; they think it's tactful and all, but I stood to my ground! No words can hold me down! But then, they left me. I was awed with disgust at first. But then came hurt and disappointment. I never knew I meant so less and complacent in their hearts. Now that I knew, I turned to be more careful with my words and I don't say out what I meant to say.

Never mind that now, but to the archieves again.

You put me so down. You said my friends didn't like because of my f*cking attitude (Hur hur. Look who's talking here!). And that even through I am from the Express stream, I am from the last class and is therefore stupid and not clever. (Facts wrong here. DUH. But please, look at yourself!) There's more, but hey! If you're my friend who dislike me because of my f*cking attitude, MSN me and I'd give you the link!

How would YOU know? In any case, I am not as cheap as you, I do not go around the school holding a banner that goes," I am steading (Eeyer! Steading sia.) with XXX!"! I keep the shush-shushs to myself. :)

Forget it. I just want to vent my anger someway.

Just 3 more exams to go, guys. Hang on there!

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!

Time : 11.03 pm

Also known as Lantern Festival, Mooncake Festival, Candles Festival, Sparkers Festival or as what I heard on the tv, Reunion Festival.

*shakes my head* Mid-Autumn Festival is so misunderstood!

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I lost the photo of my virgin and only snow-skinned MOONCAKE! :( Drats!

Nonetheless, Happy Mid Autumn Festival! Have you reunite with your bull already? Never mind. I don't really know my myths well, but I know there's this legend involving a bull and a maiden who are not fated to meet on this said night. :'( How sad. And there's the rabbit. And there's Chang'er and her husband (name?) who shot down the 8 suns.

I'd miss all the mooncake piggies and cute lantern sales.

Back to Food and Nutrition. This is the final run!

Stefanie's (and Keegan) Birthday Bash!

Time : 12.24 pm

I promised that I'd post photos and I am a man girl of my word!


I went over to Amelia's house yesterday! My school uniform looks so big right?


We tried skirts from Ebase and they (identical) are nice! :) I like I like.


Tsk tsk. Now really, you'd thingk Amelia'd have the courstesy to stop photo-whoring when I'm changing. *slaps my forehead*

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Rise and shine! I got so bored while waiting for Huixian that I..


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Haha. Love my shades! Love me!


Amelia and I took the train together to Jurong East. Woot. Real far!

Stefanie and Keegan's (Stefanie's brother) birthday bash was at Jurong Fuji Ice Palace! It's an ice-skating rink, in case you're concerned. :)


Stefanie and Keegan!


The Birthday cake from MacDonald's! Life's sooo unfair. Keegan's friends get to eat MacDonald's, get MacDonald's toys, play MacDonald's games, get MacDonald's goody bags, but WE DON'T! :(


The Fong's! :)

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And we started taking photos, photos and more photos!


Me and Fangning.


Me and Huixian.


Stefanie cutting her mango (YUM!) cake!


Amelia, Huixian and me.

Keegan's cute friend!


Fangning and Amelia.


Fangning and Huixian.


Huixian and the Birthday girl.


The birthday girl and me.


The 6 of us!


AMBERLY! SO CUTE SO CUTE SO CUTE! *gushes*


Amberly sleeping! HEEHEE. So cute! (Note to Stefanie: Can gimme your sister?)

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One by one, my friends all left me.

Familiar?

Haha.


And we went back to the East!



These are what we bought from the pasar malam near Eunos MRT Station. Woah-ness!


Amelia (with her chicken wing) and Joyce indulging into the yummy local delights.

A shere waste of candles:

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The heart is made by HUIXIAN. (She wanted it to be known.)


The heart with it's owner.


Me with my BIG lantern! If you're observant, I had changed into a tee because the weather is HOT HOT HOT. Haha.


Me, Kaiwen and Amelia with our dear lanterns. Only Kaiwen and me got BIG lanterns! Haha!


Meet our family! Mummy, Beebee (Baby) and Daddy!


We played with sparkers too! It felt like our second childhood.


POP!


POP POP!


POP POP POP!


I like the lighting effects a lot. These stands for Lishan (Lecia) and Huixian.


Our lanterns. :)


A Google Earth view.


The 7 of us with our lanterns. Yes, I know it's incredibly dark.


The miniature Baby lanterns!


The big Parent lanterns!


The lantern happy family. :)


Us with the lanterns again.


Now now, this is not a vulgarity!

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It stands for...













Chio Bu And Kaiwen claims that it's for her.

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'Nuff said.

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How can I forget the main star of the night?



That's right!

The almost full moon. :)

I was so exhausted when Joyce and I went home finally! Phew! What a day. :) I am glad to say that I had not fell at all while ice-skating and I managed to go a few rounds on my own! I am so independent. Heehee. Nice Jiayang accompany home from the bus stop! Muahaha. Thank ya!

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Best wishes:

Happy birthday, Keegan!

Happy birthday, Lydia!

Happy Mooncake Festival, people!

*bows*